Poemes: Ma vie, mes doutes, mes deceptions, mes reves, etc

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INDEX (Mes poemes en Francais commencent seulement a partir de la page 5)


01. Feelings
02. One way desire
03. Misunderstanding
04. Memory
05. Marilyn Monroe
06. Not that cute
07. The recovery
08. Going down
09. Turn of events
10. The single's world
11. To ask one self's
12. Lies
13. Someday
14. Tuesday encounter
15. Review of the situation
16. Romance fiction
17. Library girl
18. Going away
19. Unattainable
20. Angel
21. Disillusion
22. Wrong strategy
23. Loathing
24. Illogisme (FR)
25. Adieu (FR)
26. Feared duty
27. Dirty magic
28. Addicted
29. Counting the days
30. Meaning of life
31. L'espoir fait vivre (FR)
32. Dreamland
33. Too bad girl
34. Reflexions (FR)
35. Espoir dechu (FR)
36. Obsede, embrouille et depasse (FR)
37. Mise en cause (FR)
38. Double jeu (FR)
39. Projet compromis (FR)
40. Love message
41.Sunshine
42. Reborn
43. Nha Trang (FR)
44. Joyeux anniversaire cherie (FR)
45. Amour intense (FR)
46. Doute desespere (FR)
47. Fin obscure (FR)
48. Atmosphere noire (FR)
49. Plaisanterie inapreciee (FR)
50. Dead end
51. Saint-Valentin (FR)
52. Envie utopique (FR)
53. Promesse blessante (FR)
54. Declaration (FR)
55. Princess of light
56. Paris Hiver 2003 (FR)
57. Daily torture
58. Thank you Lord
59. Noel 2004 (FR)
60. Devil's playground
61. Marie (FR)
62. Recovered poem: The after Paris 2003
63. Recovered poem: Chloe's departure
64. Recovered poem : Un jour de plus (FR)
65. Recovered poem : Heartbroken
66. Recovered poem : Spiritual warfare
67. New horizon
68. On my mind
69. Destiny
70. Incroyable connection (FR)
71. Missing you
72. Crushed
73. Hard decision
74. Chagrin envashissant (FR)
75. The real Matrix
76. No chance
77. Empty
78. Betrayal
79. Nightmare
80. Hurt and Anger
81. Live the moment
82. Expectations
83. Contemplating the fall
84. Beauty
85. Purpose of a gift
86. The cost of dreaming
87. Suppressed Feelings
88. Problematics of hope
89. Rendez-vous with fate
90. Far Away
91. A few words change everything
92. Mauvaise Nouvelle
93. Burdens

This is my first poem ever! I was in 11th grade at that time, and when I wrote this I was in bed at around 2am, couldn't sleep. The first 4 verses came to my head pretty naturally and I thought to myself this ain't bad actually, i should definitely write these down b4 i forget them... So I did, and then just kept on writing, it was a pretty surprising experience to see I cud do rimes so naturally...

Here I am
Nobody gives a damn
All alone in my bed
How I wish it was coed
This is the end of my loneliness
Cause I need somebody else
So when will I meet her
Was it you Esther
That I should have loved
This ain't gonna be solved
All I really know
Is that I now say no
To despair
Nope it isn't fair
To be all alone
She just won't answer the phone
What is it
Can't I do it
I don't even know
How I could show
That this ain't bullshit
You just don't get it
I'm depressed
Cuz I still haven't set
A relationship based on love
Looks like nobody wants of
My love.

This isn't over
Cuz I still haven't found her
I met someone
Oh boy she was the one
Her name was Ann-Marie
But looks like she didn't care about me
She said she did
But I was pretty stupid
To believe her
Cuz for her it didn't matter
She never wrote back
My world turned to black
I shed so many tears
But nobody ever hears
My call
Or maybe they just don't care at all
Is it my future to be single
It's really not simple.


All I want is a gal
But not to be pal
I want her to love me
Yeah that's what I wanna see
It's not gonna be easy
But maybe
God will finally be
Good to me.

This poem is about my 6th grade sweetheart that I had lost contact with until I saw her again in Paris in 9th grade, she was in the same school a year b4 i got there. This story however takes places during my 11th grade.

I haven't seen her for a long time
And she doesn't even remember who I am
What is it with older men
At least when we were children
I meant something for her
Even now when I look at her
My heart tells me she's the one
I'm over-reacting what is going on
Am I falling in love again
Anyway all I get is pain
The way she looks at me
Is so important to me
She said I'm not as cute
Can't she see she's my loot
I can't stop thinking about you
I shouldn't have taken that picture of you
Tell me God do I have a chance
In my dream of romance
Especially with that girl
Oh God she's a great pearl
I didn't take my chance in the past
Will I succeed at last
You might say you don't care
But that would be unfair
Cuz the way you look at me
Drives me crazy
You're another person
But God knows how much you turn me on
You asked me once to be your valentine
Well now I want you to be mine
If we could be together
I couldn't be happier
Don't you even see that I am
Falling for you all over again.

Yesterday you gave me a call
But it didn't pay off at all
Cuz all you wanted is that the call ended
Once you had the phone numbers
Of these friends of yours
If you see this song
Will you tell me so long
Cause you could be afraid
Of my love crusade.

When you asked me
Deep inside me
I thought
That you caught
The right moment
But it just ain't
What I wanted
Cuz all you needed
Was an incomparable answer
To the gift of my tender.

If you were single
It would be a little bit more simple
I would like to know you better
Stand by you closer
Catch your lips with mine
Oh yeah it would be so fine.

This was a summer fling during my holidays in Vietnam after my 11th grade... She was really hot... :)

I don't have much inspiration
But anyway this song won't be a love potion
Why didn't you call me
Don't you care about me
Made me doubt so badly
When you went home without me.

You haven't called in four days
And you sure ain't with those gays
If you are with that Danish guy
Why didn't you tell me goodbye
That way I wouldn't be torturing myself
And this notebook
Would have stayed on its shelf
Just as I was starting to care
All I got back from you is despair
Just won't answer the phone
Maybe cause you're not alone
How is this story gonna end
I don't know but I hope you're not gonna send
Me a message telling me it's over
Cuz you're with another.

I finally saw her last night
But I didn't start up a fight
She told me she didn't call me
Cuz she lost her phone can't you see
She thinks I'm an idiot
Although I knew a part of me wanted to believe it
I acted like I haven't cared
But in reality I would have shared
Precious moments with her
Boy was I a dreamer.

Suddenly I realize what I just missed
That's why I tighten up my fist
Man that girl was pretty
But she never considered me seriously.

Anyway I went out with her again
And I'm getting insane
Cuz she left me to go home
Without even letting me give her some
She made a fool out of me
And that's the end of the story
Too bad you sure were one of a kind
But I guess I wasn't what you had in mind.

Same summer, another fling... And yeah I know I fucked up bad!! But thank God all is good, no worries...

I have been thinking about you
Am I falling in love with you
Or am I afraid of loneliness
Take a wild guess
I have to admit
That I really loved the way we did it
We took off
Pretty soft
Although we were sweating
You and I just soaking
What an amazing atmosphere
Especially when you were gasping in my ear
We really were connecting
If only I wasn't fearing
Yes I should have said
That I was afraid
Cause maybe I became an assassin
Haven't you seen
With that Jap I did it
And maybe now I have it
I hope I didn't contaminate you
Cause I care about you
I mean why were you such in a hurry
Didn't you know that I had a condom ready
I wanna go home
So you could give me some
Affection
And that's the conclusion.

I miss our moments together
Am I a dreamer
Cause maybe you don't give a shit
It was only for one night wasn't it
Nevermind I'll have your satisfaction
In my memory of the past action
It's funny how a short story
Can make me so happy
If I come back will you be the same
Or will your aim
Be on someone else
And leave me in my sadness
I remember how we kissed
And that just gets me pissed
Cause I miss the passion
That we shared to Zion.